Simplicity.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

You are disturbing.
You made me detest school, detest the people around me.
You may not see that its this bad, so I am telling you, it is.

I am supposed to abstain from blogging, but this is my channel of anger while I am still on earth.
We may be students but we are all humans.
You are supposed to be the one whom I look up to and respect , sadly I don't think I can do so anymore. Help me, help yourself,gain this confidence and trust back now.
You are nice on the outside generally,I don't deny.

But life is not about getting straight As, its more than that.
Hopefully you will understand us and really know we are trying,sometimes too much.

Read this from the newspaper.( I do read.)
Grades and building relationships ain't suppose to be mutually exclusive.
The saddest thing would be, having good grades but no one there to celebrate your joy.
There are no textbooks to teach love.
No reference notes for being a better person.
The only role model is God himself.
Think about it. We can't teach love.

Likewise, live like we are dying.
Make every second count.
You just made me want to study harder to prove you wrong.Wrong-er than before.

I sound like a bitter child, I really do):
Okay,I will put you on my prayer list.
You've made it.

On the sidenote,
You never fail to confuse me.
My friend told me today I am those who doesn't place my trust in anybody.(she confides in me.hurhur!)
I don't deny.
Sometimes, I even doubt God. But ultimately,I know He provides and is the constant.
I am skeptical of human nature. Thats all.
Precisely because of past incidents.Protecting myself seems attractive.
I am careful with my portion of trust. Its weird for me to say this.
I must really say, I am also the fragile one here.
I do get hurt, I do get emotional, I do flare up, I do do many things beyond yours or my imagination. I get real high at times, I do want to give up many more times.
It is just how well you know me.
Because you are not God, you don't know me inside out.

Life's a marathon, Christian life is an exciting one,a full 84km.
My comforter & strength,come find your rightful place in my broken heart.
Streams of life, come fill me up.
Cause when I am weak, You are strong,
You're my feet when I can't move on.

Shoutout to Chooby only(:
HAHA, this post is long enough,so I don't mind making this longer.
You are my best friend.
A friend whom I don't find it hard to get along. more of fun(:
If I have to say this anytime,might as well be here. I LOVEYOU CHOOBS.(:
You will get more of my cheesy poems.
Its generating in my head, but I need my mood to be back and my thoughts to be on track.
Hmm, many times you said you will divorce me,dont talk to me.
My only solution is to pounce on you. hahah kidding.
Because I love you so, I will marry you again and talk to you. HAHAHAHA(:

Really just want to say, Don't give up.
We will run along this race.If you are lagging behind,I will drag you with me..
Till we complete the race.
You are never alone,don't be sick of my face.(just made a short poem.) Please know that.!(:
As your best friend, I will be praying.

Yes. Emotionally charged blog.
One of the longest I ever posted in my years of blogging I think.
Take your time to read.
TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY.
SO SMILE,IT WORKS WONDER.
FOR YOU & FOR ME.

♥ 10:20 PM