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Sunday, February 28, 2010

Dear God,
I really want to thankyou for sustaining me for 16 years.
My good years, my bad times, every drop of tear, every hurt.
I can finally say. I lay it all down before you.
This 16 years of my life, You are with me.
Thank you God for everything.
You rule and reign in my life from now and forever.(:

So this shall mark my end of sweet sixteen celebration
But the beginning of an exciting life.My life would be different, I believe.
Because learning about love and how to love can revolutionize my life.
Love should be selfless, it should not be based on reasons.
I should not be loving you because of this or that.

1 Corinthians 13
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails

Living up to this verse would be tough.
But love should be part of our nature. so maybe this is not the best of me yet.

Dear Dad,Mum,Bro and sister.

I always say we are the coolest family and we shall be.
Though you might not know Christ yet, but you are always still my bestest family members I ever will have. I thank God for each and everyone of you.
Because you make me feel loved within a complete yet broken family.
Whatever is the situation of the family now.
I just wanna say sorry for everything I've been doing wrong and a huge thankyou for forgiving me and not hesitating to accept me over again.

I love you all.

Dear cell,
I am super blessed to be in this awesome cell with awesome leaders and overseer.
Nothing can express just how awesome this cell is and grateful I am.
But just to say thankyou for arranging the party and everything we've been through.

I can totally say you guys are super awesome and I LOVE YOU ALL.
VERY MUCH INDEED.
May God bless all of you abundantly.

More coming up.

♥ 11:38 PM

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

American Idol is starting!
So I shall make it short & sweet(:
I love Andrew Garcia. haha.

I've mastered the skills to group my friends into mathematical sets.
You can be the INTERCEPT,SUBSET or the UNION.
Quite cool, to think about it.
Counting down to sweet sixteen,and Iwill a sweet post to myself.

NOT TO DO ON B'DAY.
STUDY. GAHH, please,I am not going to. am I? okay no,dont hesitate.
hahaha.(:
Meanwhile for the remaining days of the week, I shall study and play hard.
okay cool. sounds like an awesome plan.(:

Great is the measure of our Father's love.

♥ 10:29 PM

Sunday, February 21, 2010

What a dramatic,akward and yet fun day.
The days of innocence is finally over. Now every word you and I say.
Can be like a dagger that stabs deep into our hearts.
It carries so much weight that you didn't even know it did hurt badly.

Everyone is fighting to claim the credits they think they ought to receive.
Who is there to assume allthe guilt and blame.
I had quite a number of these moments today.
I will be frank, I feel guilty pretty easily.

I choose to be the one saying sorry when it gets to this stage.
Not because I need your sympathy.
Just that, I know I caused it indirectly. the part that I played in causing all this drama, I hope an apology will suffice or at least ease the tension at that point in time.

Many things I choose to keep it to myself.
Many things you choose to share but not with me, I understand.
For a million reasons, that will happen.
I just hope you are okay.

Thankful that patience sets in ,I didnt flareup at my mum.
& hurt more people.

hey,to everyone today I met.
I am sorry ,if you are actualy going to read this.
For anything and everything that has happened today.
Let it just be memories not worth to keep alright.
We've come so far, hold on. This is not going to put our friendship at stake.

Thankyou Lord for a new day.

♥ 10:14 PM

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Love from Man is like a plane taking flight.
You go real high feeling all dingdong.
When it crashes, you fall right down.
No one remembers where you are heading to anyway. hhaha.

I had my revelation of love, have you had yours?
My definition of love:
- More patience and love for the people around me.
- Going the extra mile.
-something personal.

But today's service brought me an answer to my previous blog post.
To why I am actually holding on to you, my friend.
I could have said, anyway you are just you, if you gonna hold this friendship lightly.
I could jolly well do so too.
But its the love for you that I know certainly, I can keep this friendship, for long.
The desperation cry I have to say, stay strong my friend.

Its this love I know that its worth fighting alongside you.
Its this love that I know you are worth making me cry when you did.
Making me laugh even if I was feeling my lowest.
I love you,my friends.

I told myself, i would not just love the lovable.
Because its always easy to love the good points of a person and when you encounter something bad about that person,you say. stay away from me.
The "i am too good to be your friend" mentality sets in. hahaha.

Because you never need to know how I feel.
Just like you never told me how you feel.
You know I will just assume if you dont say, I dont like to force you to say.
Maybe its better this way.
Who knows what could happen, do what you do,just keep on laughing.
Cause maybe I will feel better just being beside you.

You anchor my life with Your love.
Your love is the foundation that I am building myself on.
It's going to be hard, but I am going to love doubly hard.

Smiling is the beginning of love.
-Mother Teresa

♥ 10:56 PM

Friday, February 19, 2010

I believe in true love, I really do.
It is just...gonna be hard to find one who loves you as much as you love him.
haha,yeah.

Are we going to be like them?
I will never try to decipher how you feel again.
Because you never seem to be true.
Sometimes I feel as if I am wasting my time being so concerned.
Tell me if it is just wasting time.
Prolly I will slap myself hard with this truth,wake up and won't bother you anymore.
I am too tired to run after you everytime.

God,sustain me.
How exactly I know if you are a true friend to have.
That its worth for me to worry.
That its worth for me to fight alongside with you.

Tell me if its worth it.

♥ 11:29 PM

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

When your ring of influence grows bigger than what you can comprehend.
You find clones everywhere.
Its gets really.
weird.

don't do what you don't want people to do.
Because you are just offering cheap talk,lame complains.

Never to succumb to peer pressure.
I am standing for my cause no matter what you say.
Accept me for who I am,and not what I am being.
same goes to you. with due respect.

some people say change.
While i choose to say, deal with it.
Because they first need to see the change in you.

♥ 10:05 PM

I am so going to bite your head off for being selfish.

And then they are going to ask me wheres the lovee.

I don't ask for more.

I only ask that you can stop thinking about yourself.

I can tell you, its not all about you.

It was never, right from the start.

So, show the love to others.

If only.

I cannot afford to keep you.

Look for someone else.

I need confimation.

Give me the capacity to love.

"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love."

Mother Teresa.

♥ 9:17 PM

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Some of my best days are your worst.
Still think that this song is so true.
Why can't we make everything balanced with the beauty of love and perfection.
The answer is that we simply can't.

Only God can do everything.
We do to the best of our capablilites and await for the miracle.
Quitting is never a answer to a problem.
There will be a place you can call it home.

If you feel like crying,give it the best war cry.
Don't quit fighting,
You gotta fight to live this life right.
The victory is in Jesus Christ.
The joy is yours to keep, forever.

Happy valentines(:
Waiting for the perfect person to arrive.

Happy chinese new year.

Happy birthday to Serene and Tricia.
Thankyou for being significant in my life.
No words can express whatever we've been through.
except a huge thankyou, and that I LOVE YOUSOOO.(:

♥ 2:05 AM

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

Why are you and me so fearful of the smile others give.
Why are you so defensive of your case.
Not only behind all the smiles lies doubt, it lies pain and hesistation.

I tell myself, this is not gonna do.
Don't humour me nor entertain me.
You cannot work this out yourself at all times,will you let me help?

I am excited for school cell.
Its a brand new feeling that didn't exist in me for a long time.
Its time to get excited about the things of God.

I know of this love that no one can comprehend.

There is always a time for everything.
Beauty is subjective, I believe.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in'
Cause I got time while she got freedom'
Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first

While I'm wide awake, she has no trouble sleeping'
Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, no
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?

I'm falling to pieces, yeahI'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reasonB
ut no wise words gonna stop the bleeding'
Cause she's moved on while I'm still grievingAnd when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even.

Beautiful song.

♥ 11:09 PM

Sunday, February 07, 2010

HAHAH, I love this photo.
Star awards was fun.
You will never be alone,just know that.

If I let you go,
I would never know, how my life would be.
Holding you close to me.
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?

We gotta fightfightfight for this lovee.

♥ 12:36 AM

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

I am walking on the road called faith.
I am still walking.

Dear God,
I always have this problem of flaring up. As much as I dont want to get angry with anyone.
They just got to trigger it over and over again.
It leaves me helpless and I just feel like SHOUTING BACK.
I am sorry for the times I did shout back because I felt pain after I did.
Help me to think right, to love, to not get angry for the things they do and say.
As much as I want to give up, I will not.
Totally dependent on you.

Sometimes I just hope I was immune.
In times of chaos, there will always be this akward silence.
I am thankful because I kindof needed that.

Make me turn back, turn back to those days of innocence.
Get me right back to the starting line. Because.
I am going to start running again, this time,

I am breaking the record.

I am legend.
God,would you be there at the finishing line waiting for me?
Afterall,you are the only spectator I will need to have.

♥ 8:28 PM