Again and again. Despite the hysteria around me, I retained my composure. Hoping that history doesn't repeats itself. Telling myself that I will be stronger than this. Stop telling my its okay when its not. Not saying that any of this is your fault. I am most willing to do this and that. But just don't take advantage of me because of this fact. I hate this feeling that I had experienced today, guess pretty much I showed you with the face. Sometimes it got me to stop in my tracks, ask myself if its still worth it. Again and again.