Simplicity.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Take a chill pill. Breathe.
Angsty feeling be gone.
I always thought I can get over it but its not as easy as I thought it would be.
I am trying, really. To do the best that I can.
You've got to believe that I ain't lying when I said, I love you.
Cause I really do.

Random, but I did household chores today.
Pretty happy cause I did not mess it up thats one & I prepared dinner!(:
I arranged math file, did chinese essay (3pages,super elated.)
Found new,smarter ways to study.
Planned my week, nicely done Angeline.

Also, it is officially my last training): ):
I cannot find the words to say to express my feelings.
Everyone went numb, with overwhelming emotions.
Remember the shit we went through together, all the physical, emotional issues.
The ups and the downs, the highs and the lows.
Come on, we cannot just let it go.
These memories lingers deep down my heart.
Tennis brought me far and with this, move on.

You look through this tired eyes of mine,
and still you say, I am a soldier in your eyes.
Where to obtain this masterpiece called 'love'?

♥ 10:39 PM

Sunday, March 28, 2010

I will always be happy.
Not what you did nor what you said.
Because the nicer I am, the hurt caused will be greater.
It's time, time to draw a line,to have a clean break.

To know that, what you do and say will not hurt me no more.
I don't have to react based on my feelings, but whats right.
yeah, I guess this is it.
I don't have to try for your love.

LALALALA, I am happy for you.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ?em out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin' on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken.

What hurts you the most?

♥ 2:24 PM

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Thats the world we are living in.
You can choose not to believe it, but there will always be these things happening.
When I gave it my all, should I not get more.
My soul within me cries out that its not fair anymore.
Thats when I realised I don't get it, at all.

No one said it was going to be easy.
So stop being so flimsy. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.
I love being in Your presence, Your Word is indeed the truth,my comforter & strength.

How I love you so.

♥ 11:57 PM

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Yay, school's awesome, I realised there are many things which I have to study myself.
I am totally lost when my teacher goes through the chapter, its a sign that I must study before they teach.
Yeah, but God has been good, and school is just exciting. I am trying everyday not to fall asleep and I am proud to say I did not sleep in any lessons so far. PTLLL(:

Okay, yeah. I jsut need to finish up my math.
Seeyou.

If I walk,would you run?
If I stay, would you come.
I wish you would when I wish upon a star.

♥ 9:26 PM

Sunday, March 21, 2010

A wide grin and a toast to the starting of Term 2 tomorrow.

Theres got to be more, my prayer for this week.

No way for stagnation to occur, no more its you or its me, its just going to be us.

Still standing by unity is strength.

MFGMFGMFGMFGMFG.

I am excited for it. Something's happening, it is. Something good.

Are you excited too?

HEHE.

Are you becoming more like me? or me becoming more like you? HA.

Let's not get there.

Its the closeness thats fragile and yet cherishable.

Its the way you speak of me and my forgiveness comes easy.

Its the way you are protecting me but I am learning how myself.

If this is funny to you.

Sorry its kind of disturbing to me.

Subjective.

Will it be easy to say I don't care?

I thought it was.

Now. Maybe not.

Take my advice, back out now before you mess up.

God, save her.

♥ 11:29 PM

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Again and again.
Despite the hysteria around me, I retained my composure.
Hoping that history doesn't repeats itself.
Telling myself that I will be stronger than this.

Stop telling my its okay when its not.
Not saying that any of this is your fault.

I am most willing to do this and that.
But just don't take advantage of me because of this fact.
I hate this feeling that I had experienced today,
guess pretty much I showed you with the face.

Sometimes it got me to stop in my tracks,
ask myself if its still worth it.
Again and again.

♥ 12:34 AM

Monday, March 15, 2010

PEOPLE ARE READING.
THEY KNOW. HAHAHA.

I have not finish my revision and I am sleepy.
I ran today,felt healthy, well not so after dinner but yeah.
I want to watch tv, but the bed looks more tempting.
So i guess I am going to sleep.

P.S. I realise theres no need to privatise my blog cause the rest don't get what I am saying too.
HAHAHA.

You are like a pretty missile,
that shot me up the sky.

I rather to be myself. but not to you.
B.O.B IS GOING TO KILL YOU.

♥ 11:12 PM

Don't ask me how.
Why.
Because I don't have the answers.
Its hard to be ignorant, ignorance is NOT my new/old best friend.
Is it going to hard to be me?
Am I going to need to hide behind a mask.

Do you even GETITGETITGETITGETIT.
Forget it.

♥ 1:16 AM

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Love.

Such a big word.

Without actions,this word is being made cheap.

I am sorry that it has turned out this way.

I am sorry if I was the cause of it all.

I didn't know it could have influence you or rather I don't want to hurt you.

I am really sorry that the love I shown caused misunderstanding.

Because it turned out this way, I keep my distance.

I know very well how much it hurts left dangling there not knowing the ending.

I know it too well.

If whatever I have been doing cause you much pain, maybe its the wrong kind of love.

Dear God,

Sorry for the times I love with intentions,with reasons,with whatever not.

I thank you for the power of adoption and that you don't mind my past.

You make me feel that I am Yours.

I thank you because You are the Best GOD I can ever serve and its my honour to serve You.

I've been living under expectations for so long.

If I wander off too far, would you be there to pull me back to my senses.

Will you put on the armour and fight this good war of faith.

will you?

Loving you has caused me pain.

Loving you has caused me to be happy at times.

Loving you made me what I am today.

So I guess its worth it.

♥ 11:40 PM

Sunday, March 07, 2010

I may not be the perfect person to salvage this situation.
Rather, nothing I say will be of use now.
So I won't say, not even are you okay.
Often the more we question, we are actually hurting each other more.
Let's just remain as friends.
Someone that we will treasure all our life.

When I look at you my mind goes on a trip.

♥ 10:26 PM

No, this shan't bother me much.
Last week going into march holidays!
After march hols, midyears? and then prelims and. OLEVELS(:

Problems that dont exist as it is.
You mean alot to me. trust me.
You don't know how much it hurts.
Because we all need to be assured and be loved.
The things you do, the words you say reflects alot about your character.

Sometimes, I wish I dont have to know about anything.
Then I don't have to do anything about it.

Lost in a dream.
Don't know which way to go.
If you are all that you seem,
Then baby I'm movin' way too slow

I've been a fool before
Wouldn't like to get my love caught
In the slammin' door
How about some information,please

Straight up now tell me
Do you really want to love me forever
Or am I caught in a hit and run
Straight up now tell me
Is it gonna be you and me together
Are you just having fun?

I just love lyrical songs.
I told myself that I will be strong.

♥ 9:34 PM

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

I always knew I was blessed.

Blessed to be a child of God.

Blessed to have so many friends.

Blessed to be cared for and loved.

Because sometimes the haze in front of you is so thick,

You find it hard to breathe.

Its even harder to see.

Trust that you will be guided out of this soon and very soon.

Just have faith and everything will be okay.

You just have to say sorry, I will believe you.

I won't leave you.

♥ 10:17 PM

Monday, March 01, 2010

This picture came out first.
To Regine: Thank you for being awesome in my life.
Not only have I make your life more retardedly dramatic, trust me, you made my life even more dramamama.(: You have been a great friend to have, alot of potential to grow and of course i love you babe, stay awesomely pretty.

This is to KENNY. haha.
Hmm, you have been just a great friend to have. A very nice guy who deserves a great girl.
Thankyou for everything you've done to make me feel appreciated and just being you.
You are just an awesome friend and I just wanna say thankyou.(:
Whatever is going to happen, your friend( me) is here(:
Sean Lee: remember is not about the picture, is who you take with.
HAHA, but SEANSEANSEAN. Thankyou for all the moments we have that I can just really talk about it. and you can also share yours.
Because it builds me up, when you are serious ofcourse hahaha.
And yeah, you are a great leader. feel good about yourself. because you are awesome.
Thankyou for just everything, i mean everything from the emotional moments to the drama rame moments that we had.(:

Chooby: how can I forget you.
Though your letter might just be a form of email. but it got me tearing. seriously.
I really love having you as my friend. I did mentioned that if you haven't appeared in my life. maybe it wouldnt be as interesting as this. so yup.
Same for me, I know this friendship of ours is not just another title, I can ensure you its not to mee. This friendship is not being taken lightly by any of us.
I am thankful for that. You also dont know how much you have gone for me.

Because there are times when I will actually cry for you, with you.
you are definitely worth my tears(: aww.
thankyou for arranging the surprise. I spoilt the surprise myself luh.
I can say this is the most happening bday of my entire life till now.
I love you choobs. you are just plain awesome.
Even if I am running alone. I know you will be there supporting me maybe?(:

TO the people in the picture.
Serene: exah lian, HIFIVE, I know you for 8 years. GAH. I am really thankful because you can takemy bimbotic moments, shares with me everything through the thick and thin.
You are an awesome friend, and I cannot wait to go through the years ahead with you.
Grow in God, thankyou for everything(:

Avelene: Annointed and awesome worship leader and friend, Its been great knowing you. to be serving with you and what not. Because you let me see things in bigger perspectives.
Incase you didnt know, you are awesome,continue to be the light in your school! thankyou for always being there too(: love you babe.

Christine: Awesome bestie, only you would go through all the complaining sessions with me.
Go camwhoring with me one whole day. own the same pair of shoes. HAIYA we did more crazy awesome things together. Looking forward to many more exciting times. and partyyy all day long after Os(: LOVE YOU. and thankyou for everything.

Faithe: I survived your teasing for 8 years? hehehe.
Even if you tease and all, you are still a friend whom I will cherish alot.
Because you are alot more awesome than you think.
Lets all work and mug hard for olevels and be 6pointers.
We can do this (: love you loads.

Want to request for shoutouts?
call 1900-112-****. hhaha kidding.

To all the friends out there who wished me and know me.
I really appreciate you guys alot. because I know its hard to find a friend in this world.
So I am really grateful you and I can meet and be friends.
You all just make my life more interesting and fun,enjoyable.
Love you all.
May God be with you.

This is the end of my sweet 16th post.
Because you know I love you so.
My best birthday celebration ever.

I shall have a spazzing moment.
I AM 16!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(:

Goodnight.

♥ 12:13 AM