You are disturbing.
You made me detest school, detest the people around me.
You may not see that its this bad, so I am telling you, it is.

I am supposed to abstain from blogging, but this is my channel of anger while I am still on earth.
We may be students but we are all humans.
You are supposed to be the one whom I look up to and respect , sadly I don't think I can do so anymore. Help me, help yourself,gain this confidence and trust back now.
You are nice on the outside generally,I don't deny.

But life is not about getting straight As, its more than that.
Hopefully you will understand us and really know we are trying,sometimes too much.

Read this from the newspaper.( I do read.)
Grades and building relationships ain't suppose to be mutually exclusive.
The saddest thing would be, having good grades but no one there to celebrate your joy.
There are no textbooks to teach love.
No reference notes for being a better person.
The only role model is God himself.
Think about it. We can't teach love.

Likewise, live like we are dying.
Make every second count.
You just made me want to study harder to prove you wrong.Wrong-er than before.

I sound like a bitter child, I really do):
Okay,I will put you on my prayer list.
You've made it.

On the sidenote,
You never fail to confuse me.
My friend told me today I am those who doesn't place my trust in anybody.(she confides in me.hurhur!)
I don't deny.
Sometimes, I even doubt God. But ultimately,I know He provides and is the constant.
I am skeptical of human nature. Thats all.
Precisely because of past incidents.Protecting myself seems attractive.
I am careful with my portion of trust. Its weird for me to say this.
I must really say, I am also the fragile one here.
I do get hurt, I do get emotional, I do flare up, I do do many things beyond yours or my imagination. I get real high at times, I do want to give up many more times.
It is just how well you know me.
Because you are not God, you don't know me inside out.

Life's a marathon, Christian life is an exciting one,a full 84km.
My comforter & strength,come find your rightful place in my broken heart.
Streams of life, come fill me up.
Cause when I am weak, You are strong,
You're my feet when I can't move on.

Shoutout to Chooby only(:
HAHA, this post is long enough,so I don't mind making this longer.
You are my best friend.
A friend whom I don't find it hard to get along. more of fun(:
If I have to say this anytime,might as well be here. I LOVEYOU CHOOBS.(:
You will get more of my cheesy poems.
Its generating in my head, but I need my mood to be back and my thoughts to be on track.
Hmm, many times you said you will divorce me,dont talk to me.
My only solution is to pounce on you. hahah kidding.
Because I love you so, I will marry you again and talk to you. HAHAHAHA(:

Really just want to say, Don't give up.
We will run along this race.If you are lagging behind,I will drag you with me..
Till we complete the race.
You are never alone,don't be sick of my face.(just made a short poem.) Please know that.!(:
As your best friend, I will be praying.

Yes. Emotionally charged blog.
One of the longest I ever posted in my years of blogging I think.
Take your time to read.
TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY.
SO SMILE,IT WORKS WONDER.
FOR YOU & FOR ME.

♥ 10:20 PM

Walked home without a clear vision. Again.
I won't say my day was totally un-productive.
Is just that, it could have been more,thats all.

Many events are lining up to happen.
Arranging for a thrash talk or more so a wake up call as a class, hope it works and things would not be worse(: *keeping my fingers crossed.

Never thought that that you are like that.
Made me feel like as if you've turned bad.
Maybe its just me.
Am I wrong,stating the facts.

I thank God because I see the hurt, felt it too.
Totally could relate to this.
Life's never fair.
If you are still deeply pondering when life is going to fair, pretty sure,your life is as miserable as it can get.

In conclusion, life's never fair.




♥ 11:09 PM

I wish to save the moon to guide your way.
Pluck the stars and make your day.
You will be sick of me,
As much as I am willing.

I've said, and will say it again.
How hard is it to find one whom God said,' He's the one for you' & if you had found yours.
Be sure I will be here, I've got your back.

I will wait for mine to appear.
This time, for real.

♥ 11:36 PM

Caught in a place where the weirdest of things takes place.
Tomorrow's sports day, as much as I don't FEEL like running, I will do my best.
School cell is great, awesome, rooms for improvement(:
I promise to tie my shoelace. HAHA!

I see you living your life as it is.
Can someone tell me how to help.
I need clearer directions!

Find strengths in your moments of weakness.
Trapped in the past for too long.
Mustering the courage to move on.
Each face is different, I know it all the same.

God is patient and waiting for me.
I am not alone, forgiveness has always been down this road.
You know that I can use somebody.

♥ 10:36 PM

Do you know you are hurting me more than helping me.
I told myself to focus on the good times, the bad times are kept at bay.
Stop creating for yourself all this pit holes and dragging me down with you yet again.
I really have had enough of this.
i didn't climb all the way out just to get beaten down by you):

find me a reason why I am still trying to hold on to you. so tightly.
I am losing you as the seconds pass by.
Still trying to figure out. though I already know it in my heart.

Don't try to candycoat the truth.
It hurts more than anything.
But it shall set you free(:
Dear God, I am really praying for an empowered time for cell tomorow.
You be there,cause its pointless if theres no You and only us.
We will really be clanging cymbals ,making much noise.
I uplift not only cell but my day in Your Hands.

You take control.
I will not fear because You are with me.
"Acquaintances knows that I blog, best friends knows why"
How true.

Who are you today?

♥ 10:26 PM

While walking back that day without my specs nor contact lens.
The world seems so much better.
Sometimes,it gets to you, people jumping frantically on your nerves.
Crowds...Chaos...NOISE.
It does. I am scared of it. These trigger things off , seriously.

You and I can get tired putting on specs of clarity.
So restless to look through spiritual eyes and meet the need.
I am afraid to give up. not now.
Hesitant because of people around me.

Counting to Mid years.
I need to be surrounded by motivating people hahah.
You study? Come,be friends with me.
Great, I am a geek now.
Talk to me in geek language.

If you cannot offer help at that point of time.
Just keep quiet.
Cause you are not helping at all(:
There will be people trying to break us up.
Coming in and out.
Fret not. I will always be there for you.

You will not hurt me, my best friend.
God, please tell me You will be here.

♥ 9:29 PM

♥ 10:39 PM